KP IS . ME

These really make me think a lot about people. I understand circumstance is not always ideal. I make wrong choices and I am man enough to admit them and try and do what can be done, which at this point is still a lot. I tried something on the recommendation of some greater minds than my own, and it truly didn’t do the trick. It was never a “miracle cure” it was exceptionally hard, I cannot even explain how hard the day to day was. On top of that trying so hard to be this person in a time of crisis and the unexpected. Yeah, I was not on my A game. I’ll be the first to say that. It was trial and error by far. It was a hope, that I’d take to it, and it’d fix what damage had been unjustly done to me. Then you realize, you’re not going to adjust to it. You can be helpless and let them destroy who you were or you can not give up. Were things I did with the best intentions and the best laid plans taken as everything but? Yeah. I can’t control others perceptions of me always. Yet, dammit, I likely should haven’t allowed everything to escalate to unhealthy levels past where they were. I cannot even explain to you, the absolute struggle for hope I had, and the times I stumbled and fell on my face. It was feeding myself something so harsh, and so strong, I didn’t recognize myself in the mirror. I waited for it to pass. The truth is easier to swallow then those bitter pills. They won’t ever win. I am still me. I may think a little different, but, dammit I know what I am and what I am not. So do most people. Most everyone. I don’t deserve forgiveness for things I did or didn’t do. Even for the dumb things I tried to do to just survive. There’s more to this story. For a few. However, one thing needs set straight. Mistakes were made and that’s passed. They are corrected for every right reasoning. Say a prayer for me. http://s1056.photobucket.com/albums/t375/wwwkpisme/

Please check this out for me. An archived history of the last approximate decade in photographs. The “good” the “bad” the “other”. ;)

Kevin P Toth 2001 – 2012 Meghan VonHassel, Chelsie Lyn Allen, Sarah Bowland, Kathleen Ann Lewis, Sarah Lewis, Jillian Walker, Sharron Walker, Karen Ann Curtis, Scott Kallay Photobucket

http://s1056.photobucket.com/albums/t375/wwwkpisme/?albumview=slideshow

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2001 - 2012 Pictures of Kevin Toth, Sarah Bowland, Erika Fifer, Jillian Walker, Scott Kallay, Karen Curtis, Meghan Vonhassel, MaryJo VonHassel, Kathleen Ann Lewis, Sarah Lewis and more. My life from 2001 - 2012. From www.kpis.me Mayfield Heights, Stow, Cleveland Heights, Kent, OHIO